LiveLaughLove15

Apr 28

My mom is so fucking nosy n complains way to much like seriously stfu I don’t care

Apr 25

I feel worthless. Why do I think this? I don’t kno. I’m a worthless little bitch n I hate it. I just wish I could change everything about me. My looks, my personality. Everything. I hate not being myself. I act different because I just want to fit in. To tell you the truth, I’m just a worthless bitch that nobody cares about n hates. I’ve thought about cutting but I kno that won’t solve any of my problems. I thought about suicide. Almost did it but I didn’t. I was so close to killing myself but I didn’t want to take that chance. Anything that I ever think about, won’t solve my problems. I can’t talk to anybody. People don’t understand what I have to go through. I hate coming home n seeing that my mom is home. She makes me feel worthless. Hell everyone makes me feel worthless. I thought to myself “if I killed myself right now, what would my friends n family do? Would they miss me? Or would they be glad that I’m gone.” I put a smile on my face everyday so that no one will kno I’m upset. I always act happy when I’m really not on the inside. I always think that someone is talking to me saying “why the fuck are you still here” or “go kill yourself no one likes you. Your just a worthless butch that no one cause about. The people that you call friends, don’t care about you n hope you die.” I can’t help myself but think about all of this stuff. I kno it’s bad to think so much but with all the stuff that’s been going on at home makes me think about it more. I feel like no one is never there for me cause their either to buys to answer their phone or ignoring me because they don’t want to talk to me. I feel left out when I’m with a group of people. Every time I’m with friends, I feel like I’m just there because I want to be. Sorry I’m not perfect cause you kno what, nobody’s perfect. Sorry that I have a messed up life n if people don’t talk to me then fine. I can always be that one person that sits at lunch by myself everyday, have no friends, n get make fun of all the time. Do I want that? No. What I want is to fit in. That’s all but I kno that’s not going to happen

Apr 24

I’m done with life. I always feel shitty on the inside but the outside I hide it cause I don’t want people see me like this all the time. I always wake up asking myself “why the fuck does anyone want to go out with me” or “why am I even still here” I some times think I’m not good enough for anybody n that people don’t like me. I always think that people don’t like me or always talk behind my back. Every time I’m in school n I’m walking threw the halls, I always feel like people are looking at me n laughing at me n saying “ew who the fuck is she” or “why the fuck would anyone want to date her. She’s fucking ugly” I just feel like I have no friends that care about me n like me for me. I’m sorry that I’m not good enough for anybody. It’s not my fault that I’m not perfect. I’m on the heavy side. I have big thighs. Big boobs. Not a good enough body. All I want to do is fit in but I feel like people keep pushing me away. I just don’t kno what to do anymore